Dirge Without Music
I am not resigned to the shutting away of loving hearts in the hard ground.
So it is, and so it will be, for so it has been, time out of mind:
Into the darkness they go, the wise and the lovely. Crowned
With lilies and with laurel they go; but I am not resigned.
Lovers and thinkers, into the earth with you.
Be one with the dull, the indiscriminate dust.
A fragment of what you felt, of what you knew,
A formula, a phrase remains,—but the best is lost.
The answers quick and keen, the honest look, the laughter, the
They are gone. They are gone to feed the roses. Elegant and curled
Is the blossom. Fragrant is the blossom. I know. But I do not
More precious was the light in your eyes than all the roses in the
Down, down, down into the darkness of the grave
Gently they go, the beautiful, the tender, the kind;
Quietly they go, the intelligent, the witty, the brave.
I know. But I do not approve. And I am not resigned.
-Edna St. Vincent Millay
I saw your first breath,
kissed away your first tears,
and cradled your head
against my breast
that you could draw my first milk.
Should I now
weep over your final gasps,
and flood your bed
with my tears
as I cradle your weakened frame
against my breast
dried and unable to sustain you.
Clouds obscure the sun
as I sit alone.
A flicker of orange
dances before me
and rests on my hand.
The tickle of your footsteps
brings a dawning smile.
I marvel over your grace,
I reach to caress your paper wing.
You rise to the sun.
I watch the rays receive you,
feel their warmth
on my face.
Today would have been my friend's 44th birthday but he was taken by cancer in February. He was a loving, nurturing father. He was an artist and musician disguised as a telecom worker. He had a fabulous sense of humor which he never lost. He was a loyal, selfless friend who could be counted on in times of trouble. He endured too much pain and yet left happiness in his wake. Please take a moment and give thanks for a Gypsy who passed this way with all his colors and music and made the world a brighter place while he was here.