So here's the unemployed Lime with way too much time on her hands and way too many negative thoughts to fuel her anger. Not a good combo. Add to that a tendency to soothe myself with excessive amounts of chocolate. Yeah, pretty picture huh? Bitter chocolate may have its benefits. bitter Limes, not so much, especially when said Lime's girth expands along with her nasty attitude. Thus, I decided it was time to do something.
I started walking again. Not much I know, but it's a start. When I was out in Colorado this summer for the bike trip reunion I realized how truly out of shape I am. I was the youngest member of the group and aside from the guy who has a serious and life threatening medical condition, I was the slowest and least conditioned member of the group as well. That was not a happy realization. So I am walking....even though my route bores me in terms of being able to vary it. It is however, quite a hilly route so it gets the blood pumping. This is good.
The job hunt has been thoroughly frustrating, as evidenced by the recent post on absurd job opportunities. I had gone to the local library shortly after loosing my job so I could fill out a VOLUNTEER application. Mind you I hold a library assistant certification in the Commonwealth of Pennsylvania so even the state recognizes I have some discernible level of professional skill here. I knew the library had no PAYING positions available but I decided I'd volunteer so I can use some skills that way and serve my local branch. Three weeks after filling out the VOLUNTEER application I still had heard nothing. Zero. I called them and asked if they had seen the application. they riffled around and found it and said they could use me for a couple hours in another three weeks. Seriously. I can't even GIVE my skills away for free. So I decided to catalog my own library and try to keep some skills going that way.
Still, I find myself thoroughly aggravated by a great many things. Too many angry thoughts stream through my head on any given day. Walking, which has always cleared my head in the past, seemed to fuel my anger. I needed something else. I was consciously catching myself and redirecting my thoughts but still struggling. I saw a local yoga studio was offering a deal for new students to be able to try as many classes as they want for a month for a ridiculously low price. I signed myself up and went to my very first class ever tonight hoping it would be an appropriate physical challenge but also be mentally relaxing.
I was not disappointed. The teacher was good at explaining the poses and how to modify them if necessary. I wound up in some surprising poses. At the end, close our eyes, and have the lights turned off. I was kind of hoping at that point the teacher would be coming around with nice fuzzy blankets and pillows. She did not but I did get up feeling pretty good at being able to make it through the class and feeling far less angry about some of the less pleasant crap in my life currently. Now if someone could help me extricate my left kneecap from my right ear I'll be even better! That and if I can get out of bed under my own power tomorrow.....